Saturday, August 1, 2009


Insurance approval has come through. We're approved for three more IVF cycles, up to a year out. Part of me is thrilled, part of me is terrified. Aug 2010! Is it possible that I'll STILL be trying then?? That can't be possible... And yet, here I am, 4 various cycles completed this year, and nothing to show but a fuller Sharps container. I didn't think that was possible either.

It's been invaluable to find people who understand... But I've been in this circle long enough to see those people I cycled with achieve pregnancy. In fact, the ones who conceived that first cycle are nearing due dates! I feel like a three year old throwing a tantrum. I'm on the floor kicking and hitting and screaming "When is it MY turn?!?"

*Sigh* I guess my post-vacation funk hasn't really lifted... In fact I'm beginning to wonder if it might be more than that. I actually cried in my therapist's office yesterday. I haven't done that in forever. I'm just feeling stretched too thin, except I can't figure out who is doing the pulling. I've got absolutely no responsibilities this summer. There's no reason to be stressed. Well, except for the biggest reason of all...


  1. OMG that's great news! My insurance only covers 10K worth of treatment.

    I know what you mean, though. It's hard to find reassurance that this will actually work. It's depressing. BUT know in your heart that you will be a mommy and it will happen. It's the only thing that keeps me going...

  2. Where do you live/work that you're getting 3 IVF cycles covered??? I'm just honestly curious.

    I know that this insurance coverage is a well as a curse. A blessing in that it lifts a huge financial burden. A curse in that the possibility exists that you may go through 3 more IVFs (I'm hoping upon hope that this is NOT the case for you!).

    I'm sorry sorry that you're feeling stretched and weary. =( If it was up to me, I'd *make* it your turn.

  3. That's great that your insurance covers IVF. Praying that you won't have to use all that is allotted. Good luck!