Approved

Insurance approval has come through. We're approved for three more IVF cycles, up to a year out. Part of me is thrilled, part of me is terrified. Aug 2010! Is it possible that I'll STILL be trying then?? That can't be possible... And yet, here I am, 4 various cycles completed this year, and nothing to show but a fuller Sharps container. I didn't think that was possible either.

It's been invaluable to find people who understand... But I've been in this circle long enough to see those people I cycled with achieve pregnancy. In fact, the ones who conceived that first cycle are nearing due dates! I feel like a three year old throwing a tantrum. I'm on the floor kicking and hitting and screaming "When is it MY turn?!?"

*Sigh* I guess my post-vacation funk hasn't really lifted... In fact I'm beginning to wonder if it might be more than that. I actually cried in my therapist's office yesterday. I haven't done that in forever. I'm just feeling stretched too thin, except I can't figure out who is doing the pulling. I've got absolutely no responsibilities this summer. There's no reason to be stressed. Well, except for the biggest reason of all...