Addicted

Okay, I have a confession to make. I think I'm addicted to acupuncture.

I know funny, right? Since I wasn't even sure I liked it before... But now I would give anything to have that sense of well-being and confidence that accompanies leaving the acupuncturist. I want to go daily. Maybe not even leave, but live there, on that table, until beta.

I'm shaken. I'm having doubts. I've entered the downward spiral of the 2nd phase of WUB, that phase where you've become convinced that it didn't work and you did all this for nothing and you are still months away from actually conceiving.

I know that I shouldn't. I've said all these things to other women before. It's too early for symptoms. You might not even get them anyway. You've got good odds. Keep positive. Blah, blah, blah...

Where's my Magic Eight Ball?? It this cycle a "It is decidedly so" or more of a "Don't count on it"....

I want to know. I want my nice peaceful feeling back. I want this cycle to be the one that works.

I'll be at the acupuncturist if you need me.